Friendship, L-O-V-E, life, random, Relationship, Story, Tought

Things That Make Me Crazy : MissingΒ 


I really miss working again here. I miss a lot of things here. I miss having to get up early to go to work. I miss open and close shop. I miss the feeling of pounding through the loading dock every time it comes to the mall. I miss having to janitor every morning. I miss having lunch with friends at the store. i miss the co-worker there . miss to look around for lunch . i miss our ‘tea time’ and i miss to ruined my friend diet . hahahaha . 

i’ve through many things happened there . the ups and downs . happy, sad, angry, missing, disappointed, shame, all the feelings ! work here, make me had a lots of friends . start from a tenant, cleaning service, gondola man, security even engineering and valet man hahahahaha. from the youngest until the oldest . i love all of them . they’re really lovely. help me much . and i know they will always be ‘here’ everytime i need em . in a middle of work, i always make a time to talk with them . and sometime when coffe break time, they came to my store just to have a lunch together and hart to heart story . 

when im on my day dreaming, i suddenly remember something that make me missing again . like when i looking for a lunch, the gondola man call my name from the lobby plafone . and just wave their hand just to say hello and happy lunchy . hahaha . and i remembered, every single day i went to work, ive to walk through to loading dock , and it always ‘windy’ and of course make my hair ‘messy’ so i’ve to ‘hair do’ when i arrived on my store . and after hair do, we always took a selfie and have a random convo .  after all ready, we went to market to buy some breakfast, like milk and bread . or mineral water for lunch . 

and anyway, i always miss the moment everytime i got bored, stressed out, bad mood or something, i always went to park lot level 5, have a talk with whoever there. and if i think that im ready, i went back to my store . listen the same song every single day until i remeber all the song list . and got freezing everyday . looking for signal just to whatsapp or short messages . acommpanied my friend smoking at parking lot to warm our body . make friends with another tenant . everything πŸ˜”

maybe, i always have a reason to ‘back’ again there . even im no longer work there anymore, i always had a reason to back again there . meet people i know . or just ask ‘how r u?’ doing nothing on parking lot . met my friends . have fun . on the first week after we quit the job, almost everyday we went there just have a random convo from middle of day until closing time . like we’re not ready to quit the job now . hahahaha . 

if i had a chache to ‘repeat’ all this ove again once more, i’d love to do that again . be there again . with them again . have a luch and dinner togerher . out teatime . our heart to heart sesion, EVERYTHING!! i always love when afternoon comes up . i dont know why, but i always love the afternoon at the mall . i still going there sometime, meet my friends and whoever . but it little difference now . lots of my friend had resign and looking forsomething better . so yeah, i dont feel the sampe but it helps me to fade my missing . 

and this song, dedicated for who still at bassura city who know me so well . for all my friend i loved . i miss you guys ! enjoy kangen, from dewa 19 . 

Event, Hobby, Music, Story

Music : Mocca on Stage!Β 

yesterday, my cousin ask me went to Plaza Indonesi to watched his favorite indie band, mocca . without doubt, i say yes . so we went out at 3.30pm, and event started at 7pm . we arrived too early . its about 5pm . so we have to waiting for 2 hours . 

things annoy me the most was, when we asked security where the venue, they always answer on different level . on level 2, on level 4, on level 5 . so we have to go around the mall like an idiot . until we asked a committee where the event held, then she told us to level 5 in the atrium . so, there we are! 

it started ad 7.30pm (supposed to 7pm) anyway mocca perform to celebrated Plaza Indonesia’s 27th anniversary . i think that the fans will not much to came but my guess is wrong πŸ˜† there is pretty much fans of mocca . i love the way they sing a long with mocca . i love the enthusiastic , i love the power and all the positive things around them . 

she’s the vocalis, and her voice just, AWESOME!

to be honest, i dont know much about their song . i just know just one or two songs . mocca is in jazz genre if im not wrong πŸ˜… i love all the song they’re played . even if i didn’t like them as my cousin but i really enjoyed the music they played . I like the professionals of the vocalist. even though her voice hoarse because before she sang in java jazz, she was still able to sing 10 songs with incredible. he still can make her fans happy with her performence . 

performence finished at 8.30pm . ny cousin was so happy after it . he feel sorry for me because i just sit  and watch them back . after waited for 15 minutes, my cousin ask me to meet  them, just in case theres a photo shoot and, yesss! my cousin was so happy and here the pict 

this is me, took selfie with her
my cousin with the vocalist

before, he ask me that if i want to took a pict with her or not, i said no because i dont really like her, but after i took a pict of my cousin i thought that, its fine if i took a selfie with her . and she is so humble . very kind singer! maybe i’ll start to like her and her music 😊

we back home at 9.00 pm ans arrived safely at 9.30pm . that was an amazing day for me and my cousin . 

see ya on my next stage ! ❀

Friendship, L-O-V-E, life, Relationship, Story, Tought

Thought : People

we cant control our life by our self . we can’t pick who can stay with us and no . cant choose the one we love whole time . cant deny anyone who could hurt us the most .

i am an introvert . i didn’t have many close friends . i know how to make friends, but i wont to be closer with them . i hate crowded place which is a lot of people . im not scare to meet new people, just feel uncomfortable .

when i was on my school live, elementary school, junior until senior high school i always have some ‘close’ friend . spend my whole time with them . before class start, break time, after school time, hang out , chit chat , heart to heart talk and other gurl things . since I was in grade school I already have a lot of male friends. I feel comfortable playing alongside men . they’re no backstabing you, no two faced, no talk behind your back .

when i was in JHS, i met a girl who became my friend since we’re in until graduate . on my 9th grade, i made friend with a girl and we’re became a best friend . so me and my 2 girl, we’re in a same class . we’re did homework together, make a trip, photoshooting . and you know what, we love the same guy . hahaha it so classy you know? but its true . we compete fairly . even in the end, none of us can be with him πŸ˜‚ . the graduate time has come . we’re three test in same high school , and we passed the test! im so happy that i can go to the same school with my girl . then my mom forbid me, she deny me to be there . it so sad for me . crying 2 days non stop . i really want to be there with my best friend . and finaly, i lost my best friend . they have a new friend , they have a new gengs. and i? i’ve got nothing . this is the first time i really hurt by losing someone in my life .

and when i was on high school i didn’t have a good friend either . especially on my 11th grade . I’m in the isolate, they used me for english class, and im meant nothing for them . they never talk to me except they need me . they never ask me to go to caffetaria, they let me sit with down syndrome student who have epilepsy at any time can recurrent . Β I swear I never do anything against those who are bullying me . idky why they can do that to me πŸ˜”6hours in class feels like a hundred years .

this is them, my friend from elementary school until senior high school :

but now, i have some close friends like i’ve shared on my preview post (click here) i really close with them . laughing together, share food , made a joke , anything ! i never think that they’ll leave me like other people before in my life . i belive them . and for this time, i wont loosing them . why? because they make me extrovert , make me be myself , forgot my traumatic .

my bf said that i should’ve a space with them . they can go wherever they want . i said that , i love to have them but i used to be alone . never fear to be alone . people will come and go in their way . new friend, college, work, new friend or even die . they’re my friends , my best friends . but im not own them .they’re free to go out . they free to stay .

not only friend who can left you behind . even family can leave you when you broke . when you have nothing to gave them . when they’re think that your family just annoy them . when they only see you when you have lots if money . when they can used you . if you have nothing, then you are mean nothing . see ya byebye !

for me, is better we forget than have forgotten . never hate people who left you . they have a reason for it . maybe their life is better without you or your life was better without them . or God will give you the best person on your life . it is their choice whether to stay or go out of your life. not your concern about their options. live your own life. You will not die even though they decided to go away from your life 😊

better you forgive them than hate them . you waste your time for hating someone who never thinking about you even a second . like i said, people will come an go in theyre own way . prepare yourself 😊

Confilct, long distance, random, Relationship, Tought


Ele is in da house yo! 

what you think is right, isn’t always right , either mine. what i thing its right, not always right . it is about prespective, point of view about something or about someone . 

me and my bf just discuss an article about (what should i named it? omfg) story about a girl, who undergoing a long distance relationship, one day, some other guy proposed the girl she say yes then she choose to broke up with her-long-distance-relatioship-boyfrie then married with the ‘new man’ . 

cant blame the boy either the girl . she said that she really want a young marriage . i think that she already asked her boyfrie to marry her, but in many conditions, he cant for now (CAN’T not WON’T, look the different!) and when someone ask her to married (fyi, the boys is a son of chairman of the Indonesia’s people’s consultative assembly) with no doubt she say yes . on my second possibility, maybe her parents ask her to marry now, before she getting older, and give them grandchild before they’re pass away (?) 

my boy said that she marry the man bcs he’s a rich man, has a lot of money . he think that if she not love him, why she want to be his wife? love can came anytime . you no need love your man or girl if you want to marry them, as long as they had money . ma boy think “why she had to sacrifice her feelings and her lover for the sake of others who are just she know?” 

i said if we don’t know the reason, a lot of possibilities that could happen. maybe it does look like self-defense, but maybe that’s true. 

I read the article from a forum on the internet, and when I read the comments, all blamed the woman for leaving his girlfriend for granted. but actually, we dont know right how the conditions be like . 

i try to think and see everything from positive side . and for everything happens to me, i think it positively . negative thinking make your life negative too . bad mood every time, easy to get angry and other negative things! 

so, this is maybe (and absolutely) non of my bussiness and neither you all, but try not to blame anyone from one side, dont judge people or whatever from one side . you’re free to give your opinion, bit not to ket other people down 😊

Have a good day guys πŸ‘‹πŸΌπŸ‘‹πŸΌ

Confilct, Family, Holiday, life, random, Tought

Thing That Make Me Crazy : daily talk ‘Car’Β 

got sick talked about car in my home . omfg , my head going to blown everytime my family member start conversation about car . i know that i should happy, i am , really i am, i do . but if everytime you talk about it, i bet it’ll change your mood instanly . 

my dad got a car by my uncle. i think that i was an operational car because my dad has just moved workplace . but about a week ago, i met my uncle and he said that that car was not an operational car, that was a private car . at first, my father deny the car, because he think he’s to old to driving a car (he’s 64 Yo and still working!!) and he didnt have a license . actually he has, but it already expired a long time ago . he’s prefers to pay someone for drop off and pick him up everyday than he should drive. but honesty, he really want a new motorcycle than a car . 

my dad is really really “well prepared” people . before he’s agree to took these car , he’s already think about all . about the gasoline, sparepart, a tax a traffic jam and anything else which i dunno what was that . he knew that if we got the car, me and my sister would ask him to going to vacation, culinary tour , going to grandma’s , or something that can add month expenses πŸ˜‚ but come on! you have a car bro! r u sure u just park it in your garage? better to use it for something could make you happy right ? after working all weekdays, late home, deadline, traffic jam, you need to vacation, going to somewhere , back to nature, eat some food you really like . refreshing even just a day .

my dad ask me and my sister to look for a driving school . my uncle was told my dad that he’s not allowed for searching a driver . he prefer money for pay a driver is for me to driving school until i get my license than he should pay someone every month . so im searching for a driving school around my home . but its hard to find . then my sister’s ex tell her that there one driving school around my home . and yesterday we went there . ask for price and terms and condition if i wanna join there . and it so expensive πŸ˜‚ it cost around US$41.17(IDR550.000) / person (exclude the license, if it included, you have to add IDR 700.000 or US$ 52.40 so you have to pay around US$93.60 or IDR1.250.000/person) and it only take 6 days and one hour per day . sound crazy right? 

he say that i dont have to go to driving school. money for driving school he used to make a license for himself . and he said that maybe he’ll teach me by him self . 

im so sick about all these πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Event, Family, L-O-V-E, life, Story, Tought


2 days ago, me and my sister went to my aunty’s house to help her prepare for gathering with her neighbour . gathering started at 4.00pm and finished around 6.00pm . and after it finished, we clean the room, then we have a talk in living room . A few minutes after, my cousins left us for buy something so i’ve to wait . 

we’re still in living room. me, my sister, Ariv , my sister in law and aunty . then, i heard a Happy Birthday song. and taa daa, my cousins back with birthday cake and “22” candles . 

i think that this surprise was for arif, because beside us, the nearest birthday was him (the day after surprise and yesterday from now) so i join them sang a happy birthday for him . you know what, that surprised was for me too . 

so, before blowing the candle i make i wish before . just one wish . and i hope it could come true . amin . 

here the video, but it using bahasa i still hope that you enjoy the video : 

Fyi, my birthday actually on this sunday, but i got surprised a week before πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ so i wanna say thank you for my aunty, all my causins, my sister and my sister in law . im happy for the surprise , i love the cake either . can i have my present? 😝😝


Foodview : Richeese Factory – Fire Chicken Level 4 & 5

today, me and my cousin went to Richeese Factory at Bekasi . 

we both really curious with food they’re selling . they selling friend chicken with different section . the most famous was fried chicken with spicy level. start from level 0 (just fried chicken without spicy spice) until level 5 (xtra hot) . and menus is varian, chicken fire , double chicken fire, fire wings ect . 

many people make “Richeese challenge level 5″ and thats why we both very curious about that chicken and decide to buy them! 

so, i choose fire chicken level 4, and my cousin double fire chicken level 5 

so this the pict 

hot hot hot!!
this is amazing πŸ˜‚

and the story begin : 

after we got our dishes, we just look at it and ask our self like”are you sure to ate all this? smell so spicy” and at the first bite i feel like “SHIT SHIT SHIT!! this is so spicy! i cant handle this” 

but finaly, we ate em all 😁

this is so spicy for godness sake! so spicy and make my stomach and my lips feels so hot . 

but above all the chiken was good and delicioso . the spiciness only in their course, not up to the meat.
Although the crispy skin was coated with spicy sauce, but it was still crispy and tasty. the meat so taaty and juicy . i love them the most . 

even the spiciness is make me stomachache, i’ll try level 5 soon . so, here bonus videos after we ate them all . and thank you for read my annoying review, have a nice day! 

after all 8/10